3X STRENGTH

I observe their side eyes,

how they linger as if they are not looking,

And yet they’re staring;

At how I seamlessly I come across smart.

At how I straddle elegance and articulate in eloquence.

***

The fact that I cross all my t’s and dot all my I’s

mesmerize them. Even, astonishes.

Maybe, if they will just let themselves appreciate,

I can tell you this, it will be much easier on them.

Because I can’t drown my light to make them shine—

I’ve never been that kind of guy.

***

The darkness scares me too.

You see, I’ve been running from it all my life.

The thought of not showing up in my best self,

Is not even an option.

***

Something about this race, not finishing it in the way

I’ve always imagined it, keeps me up at night.

But I’m learning to inhale and embrace stillness.

***

So excuse me if I cannot accommodate your fears,

You project, and I won’t bear responsibilities for your cares

You’ll never know all it take to walk in the shoes I wear.

Excuse me, if I cannot shrink all because you’re near—

This boy has never been that kind of guy.

***

I hear my crown is already paid for,

This is all me just showing up to claim it.